What a big thing…. To Decide. To decide what it is you want to be when you grow up or perhaps what to wear, what to eat or who to date? We grow up being told making decisions should be major events. Yet somehow we know this really isn’t true.
As toddlers we saw, thought and decided all within a split second. We ventured forward out of our singular space into a larger space. We grabbed first one toy and then another never pondering for days on end. We decided to take our first step on our own and then another. Someone could argue that it appears a child is debating whether to leave the safety of crawling to begin the adventure of walking but if you watch closely you will see that isn’t the case. The child is content to move at their pace not sit and ponder for days the next move.
Every single day we make decisions and some we choose to make more impactful than the decision to take another breath. Why do we do that, how did we get here and what would happen if we took even the “big” decisions in stride like all the other ones we make every single second? How can we get to this place of innocence and spontaneous decisions again?
Before the Age of Reason the veil is still very thin and often times completely open for many. The invisible playmates, clips of wisdom, and spontaneous joy shown by children that can seem daunting to those whose veil is securely intact are everyday examples of a thin veil. Then as time passes we notice that our children begin to mimic us in ways more than just words. If you notice our children begin to hesitate in making some of the simplest decisions. Who to play with, what to answer on the myriad of tests that are now required, hesitation in what to wear and on and on. I do believe that if we were honest with ourselves a niggling deep inside us that we notice with a bit of whimsy, occurs when our children hesitate in their decision making. That niggling deep inside is our soul reminding us that it hasn’t left and is within our reach,,,, if only we would open the door,,, just ever so slightly.
Your soul is the connection to the Divine. It is the piece of you that knows without a shadow of doubt that you are Divine. It is the Christ piece so many strive to attain. It never left and it will never leave. We might duct tape the door shut, seal it in hopes that the light that peaks out is diminished, we might camouflage the entrance so our uniqueness is smothered and we are deemed normal and sometimes we may nail it shut with 2x4’s and millions of nails in hopes it goes far, far away never to be seen by us and others again.
Fortunately, these tactics are not forever, our soul finds help in many forms. One of the most obvious is nature. When lost in the woods, we may create a grand story of aloneness, but one moment of pause and BLAM the story has a new twist! Hark, the many wondrous sounds and sights’ surrounding us confirms that soul has crept through the duct tape. What about all the children? We recognize soul within them there is no denying that! Acts of simple kindness is soul peaking out from within another. And when it seems that darkness has alighted upon us, there reaching out to us in the form of a helping hand, is soul. I think the most amazing time is when we finally realize that we have created these affirmations to remind us that we are not separate – we are the Divine, we are soul.
Throughout human history we have ensured that our souls are not lost to us forever. And yet we still struggle with the divine within us. I remember the gradual lowering of my veil. I remember wondering at the age of 8 why the magic was being stolen from me. I remember feeling lost and all alone the day my dad told me I was too old to hold his hand. And I remember going out into our backyard to sit under a large elm tree looking up into it and wishing I could go home. Home to where? I paused only shortly and once again wished to go home to where I was not alone and the magic never ended. I remember climbing high up into the tree embracing each branch as I climbed higher hoping to reach home. And then it happened. I nestled myself close against the trunk of the tree held safely by its branches finally realizing that I was here to stay. But I was no longer feeling alone. I felt a warmth grow deep within my heart, the comfort of the tree, and a whisper stirring telling me I would not walk alone ever in this life. From that moment on, I lived by this motto, “I will not grow up to be like you. I will never be separate from the trees and rocks as long as I walk upon this land. I will always listen to that voice that arises from within.”
This decision at 8 years of age was sorely tested and like the divine it has withstood the tests life would throw down in front of me. My life experiences with soul has had some very quiet moments, some life saving moments, some holy shit batman moments, and some this way please. I have stood steadfastly to the direction I wished to follow in hopes of smothering my life force only to be guided gently out of the foray into the meadow. I have been held ever so gently by my soul as my heart lay shattered in a million pieces at my feet, and with each I have found great joy, strength, and the wisdom to continue.
To allow our soul to truly enter our place of life helping us to change the story is what transforms you into you. It is at those times that being us brings peace. We do not travel this life alone. We have been so smart in creating others in our life. There may be times when those around us bring stories we wish were never written and yet soul still speaks within those stories always willing to help us heal those stories and leave them far behind. It is in traversing our journeys that soul speaks, guides, and yes – grabs us. Soul is not a complicated experience. It is a simple expression of daily life. As the sun rises, soul shines, as the child laughs, soul speaks, as the parent embraces, soul nurtures, and as we give, soul rises. Living from your soul makes decisions, simple and natural. Decision making from your souls' perspective doesn't require days of pondering, list making, or consternation. It only requires that you listen, feel, and trust that every decision is made for the greater good of you and all. Be brave and remove the duct tape, the 2x4's and allow the light to shine through and then out of you. Allow the veil to thin and embrace the courage and wisdom the resides within you.
Think back to the mantra of Count your Blessings. Each time you make that list, you are connecting to your soul. Each moment you say a quiet prayer of thanks, you just welcomed soul in and those hugs you give are an exchange of soul love not just to the recipient but also to you. Soul knows no boundaries, no limitations, no prejudice; soul only knows the divinity within each of us.
Take time each day to pause and welcome soul in – it doesn’t have to be upon first rising or the end of the day, let the time be spontaneous, let it be guided by your soul. Don’t make this Decision driven by Hesitation, let it flow as it did when you were small. You might just find a miracle.
Xoxo – The Soul Traveler